those pictures when we took at the chalet. oh, i miss them truckloads. i have to wait till june holidays then i could have fun with them again.

today skipped school. oh yesterday went to polyclinic. i can't stand it with my running nose, block nose and coughing. get some medicine. and its so pathetic; no MC? fuck sia. whatever. im just plain lazy to come. and oh, Ddy make lots of attitude this days. im sick and tired to tolerate any further. sometimes, i just feel like end everything just like that but when i think twice, i will regret.

i dont know if Ddy really love me now. this days, i suffer without him, does he know that? day by day, i really love me, does he know that? i dont know, how long more must i keep my tears. i just feel like to let it out. but i cant. cos no one would be there for me. serious, Mohammad Ruzaini Bin Ramlan has changed ! when he sees this girl profile, he keep on saying, that is his first admire in school. and oh, why dont get her instead? that is what i about to say.

i only have my blog to let my feelings out. i know no one would understand me. oh whatever. he's just being attention seeker now. i hate it, ya'll know that? i cant do what i wanna do. just now, he says that he wanna say something. hal besar, but till now, i dont know what it is. he says " shall say it tomorrow. cos its the perfect day. " i know something gonna happen. oh myyyyyyyyyy.

why must this happen to me when i love that guy alots? why must it be me who will suffer in the end? why must all those kind of things happen when he caught my heart? how long more must i tolerate everything? must he talks about other girls infront of my face? oh fxck, who am i to you siak?

aku tau aku nga sedey tapi bukan emo. im sick and tired of everything. baaaaaaaah.

i love Mohammad Ruzaini Bin Ramlan alots. and please, i need his heart back. i wanna be with him till i die. siak, macam paham. D, i wanna cry on your shoulder pretty please?