i dont know what Ddy means by saying all those things. but i really can't control myself. first he says that im rude. seriously, im not. i know what im doing. i didn't even raise up my voice. never even scold him vulgarities. suddenly he is mad with me just because of this. while otw to Bukit Batok walking to the bridge as bro and Taufiq fetching me. we didn't even talked. then Ddy asked me question, i did answer. we were talking plus shouting to each other.

zaini : " pala buto ah eh! "
me : " pala buto alek ah sial! "
zaini : " i bbl ngan you kan, bukan tembok! "( he shouted and really raise his voice.)
me : " aku dengar kan aper kau bbl! "(raise my voice too.)
zaini : " abeh tak tau nak jawab aper sial ? "
me : " aku dah jawab kan sial ! "
zaini : " pala buto lah sial! "
me : " pala buto alek lah sial! "
zaini : " aku takde banyak bunyi nye, aku nak break. " ( then he put down the phone.)

few minutes later he call back....

me : " betol you nak break? "
zaini : " asal? you nak pe? "
me : " i taknak, tapi i tanye you. "

he kept quiet all the way..

zaini : " nooo... "

then everything still the same. alahai, i dont wanna lose him. i know he don't even want this to happen. i know he loves me alots. and i feel the same way too. i just need him in my life. hais. i just hope that someone understand my feelings, especially Ddy.

now waiting for his call. then asked his mum whether he is at home or not. he's not lah siol. he went to West Coast without me knowing. wth? then his mum asked me " dier tak bilang ika? korang tgh gado ke? " i replied, " dier tak bilang ika pape pon. tak call dari petang tadi. entah lah cik, nanti ika cakap, asek salah je. aper dier cakap semue nye betol. " his mum say she will talked to him. thanks god, his mum would be there for me too. hais.

Ruzaini, please note that i really love you with all my heart. [: