nearly broke up with Ddy again on last wednesday. seriously, his attitude makes me go pissed off easily. since i've skipped school for two days, i went to school yesterday. and i had lots of fun in school eventhough im sad and hurt deep inside.

last wednesday, at night. was quarreling with Ddy on the phone. i don't know where's my strength gone to. i don't even dare to just fight back all his words. and oh, i know i've hurt him lots and tons of times but did i ever hurt him by saying about something which related to his life or something? hey, he hurt me by saying about my life. i just can't accept the fact that he is saying. like, oh, tell me, who is not hurt? i know i'm one of the kind, but, must you say something like that? its true, that my love for you have fade after you say that. seriously.. eventhough you begged for sorry and i accept it but i won't forget on what you say.

yesterday night, he wanna meet up with me, and yes, asked him to come down Bukit Batok. fetch him at westmall. walked to 104 where i used to slacked. but he didn't even want to sit with them. he force me to sit other place with him. like wth? im happy when im with them. majority, i sit with them not him. i do this because my love for him fades in the first place. going home time, walked with him then slacked with him under my blk. he talked craps. " aku tau kau benci Taufiq, so diam, takya belagak. " thats what my heart says. then i change topic. i keep on dreaming, building a castle. baaah, cos suddenly i flash back about that day he say somehting that hurt me. then i cry. i really cannot hold back my tears. he begged for sorry, and i can't accept. but atlast i say, it's oke? oh dear, come on ika. then he gave me a kiss and off back home. til now, i can't accept it, but he has gain back my love for him?

school was fun. i can't wait. i wanna go OBS. oh please, give me a chance bebeh. Maths class, i dreaming all the way, so bored lah oi ! suddenly i miss Ros Farhani lah siol. hahhaa, dont know where she go. oh my, six more days and im one year of working at westmall KFC. fun oi. hahaha.

oh, just gotta find out, Ruzaini back contact with his ex, Shima. fuck bodoh. hais, entah lah, aku dah malas nak cakap aper aper lagi. and Taufiq tanye aku " maner pegi u peh garang? " i was like, " entah. hilang. " maner hilang pon aku tak tau. i wanna cry, but, who would be there for me?

Mohammad Ruzaini Bin Ramlan, he's changed. i dont know what to do next. maybe, i just keep myself quiet?

AKU STRESS LAH SIOOOOOOL !