I miss this guy so much, the bloody ass guy. the one that make me fall for him so much. but lots of things happen within us. i understand his situation, but mine? he says he is a understanding guy, but oh, he's not bebeh. a guy who keep on wanna win if whatever happens. but he's a guy who love to 'bbl world'. baaaaaaah.

how i wish he could know that i truly love him. how i wish he could trust me now and for all. how i wish he could know that he's the only guy who i could last with. how i wish he would be there when i need him. how i wish he's a guy who really understand his own girlfriend. how i wish everyday i could meet him.

see, how much i love him? i cannot describe how much, cos its really so much. for the 8 times he asked for break, and he really mean it. but in the end? he's still mine. no matter how hard he tried to find ways to get rid of me, he cant. i dont mind if he didn't give me a call. but i just wanna know if he love me or not?

i miss everything about him. i miss his kiss, his touch, his smile, his laughter, his hug.. i miss joking about with him, talking craps on the phone. i miss looking at his sis. seriously, its everything about him. he's just a something to me. i just want him to show everyone that he's a guy who im worth to be with.

& the thing is, i dont think his mum would be like last time. who would always call me, message me. i just think that his mum is angry with me. oh, why am i being the one who will always get the worst one? she should asked his son. he is the one who dont even want to go to school, im the one who follow. like wth? oh please Cik Ani, know the right matter first. hais.

yesterday work at 2pm. really makes me go lalalalaaaa. im tired. brrr. woah, i miss schooling. k stop.. back home, online. i wanna chat with Ari. really miss him alots. then he offline in sudden. so messaged him, he say that he's going to Bedok cos there's a big problem. & i was like wth? im worried about him, maklom, 2nd love. but i care about Ari moree. dier langgar probation timing. atleast nothing happen to me, im fine with it. talked to Teen and Freeze on the phone. then im off to sleep. oh, i dream about Ari Sanchi.

see, few more days, & i'm off to Pulau Bukom. wanna get rid of my fucking stress that i had. but, ive got more stress if i can't contact with Ari Sanchi. its because my ppd is down. baaaah, why im broke now? ]: oh, Zaini called in sudden. but in the end, gado, as ive told him that my ppd is low. somehow, he's not happy with it. i bet, after i top up, he would asked question like, " cam ne ppd boleh low sedang kan i tak slalu contact you? " wtf? i bet, i'll ans " aku peh pasal ah. nak buat ppd aku low ke tak? " HAHA! maut ikastar nih skg.

Aku Miss Faizally Amin a.k.a Ari Sanchi, aku punya laki lah oi.